To Myself, I love You Unconditionally.

I cannot pinpoint the moment of change, the distance I travelled to get from utter self-hatred to unconditional love. Yesterday I was small, scared, a tiny human with no sense of the world or how to love. Today I am giant, a whole woman, with love stored in every part of my body, down to my feet and toes, I love them for how they carry me — carry me away from the pain, the hatred, and towards the love and light. For existing without self-love is a painful experience, no human deserves to do so. A small naive girl, does not deserve a harshness or punishment, even for her mistakes — she deserves a total love and acceptance, a safe space to learn, to grow, and to change. I know that now. So for every challenge in life, I give myself room, and I love myself no matter what. 

I have lived life side by side of myself, assuming that I loved myself because I was still alive (barely), without understanding that you have to dive right into yourself… discover who you really are, ugly parts and all. I sit with myself now, alone, as a woman, as me… I am so proud of who I am. I have the freedom to choose love, to love myself maybe as others have not; I enjoy being me, for all the craziness that I am and beauty that I emit. This is me hugging my younger self. 

I hope when you read this you understand the importance of loving yourself unconditionally, without doubt and without question ¬ you deserve a life filled with vibrant love, if not from other people, then at least from yourself. It is a gift to spend your whole life with yourself, learning, growing, changing and most of all loving. Spending your days questioning if other people love you, but do you even like yourself, do you know who you are? truthfully, down to the core; can you tend to yourself during times of need, can you be kind to yourself when others aren't being so kind, can you be honest with yourself, but not harsh, and can you give yourself the room and freedom to grow and change freely. Sending you the love you most definitely deserve. X