28.06.23

I am searching for myself in the face of others

In places I do not belong

and I find I do not exist

and it all feels so wrong

 

I imagine I have found myself

in the formation of the clouds

in every grain of sand

in every gust of wind

 

Each tear carries with it a desirable ache

I can do it

I can do it

I know I can

please God just give me a chance

 

I am a very scared child

Life is too big for me 

I do not think I will make it

It is difficult to breathe sometimes

 

I have been sent here with so many questions

I hope they are never answered

In this way I can exist forever

 

I have learnt that  

love only exists out there

When it exists in here

 

People I do not know have loved me

And I have loved people I do not know

 

I am so grateful

 

I am not sure where to begin

but I never want it to end

 

I just need to take off my skin for a second

And wear something else

I want to scream into the air 

It does not matter who I am 

And I do not care 

 

Because within this body

there exists an infinite beauty

that will never die.

- Poetry