Hope
I just want to speak about how drastically your life can change- sometimes in such little time too and how that should give you enough hope to believe that tomorrow could be that better day. For years now I've struggled with myself- I've often wondered if there's something wrong with me, especially as a teenager I struggled to understand myself and where I was heading - I had all these emotions and no clue what to do with them. There's been times in my life where I've wondered what it'd be like if I wasn't here- those thoughts are no completely distant now but I know that I definitely want to be here- I think it's so easy to get caught up in life and all the drama that you never take a second to just sit and actually realise there is a reason you're here- you don't have to know that reason but there's no way you were created just by chance. Life seems just that little bit more amazing when you realise that out of all the chances you are the one that's living and breathing and experiencing things.
I know that everything I write on here is just words and especially if you're in a negative space words don't really mean much- you can tell someone to be happy or give advice but sometimes that just isn't enough. It's like when you're in that whirlwind of emotions -you feel like everything in life is against you and no matter how many good days you have the feeling just doesn't go. Then without even realising it you come out of that whirlwind - you laugh, you smile but because we've become so immune to realising the good times we don't actually notice or acknowledge how we're feeling at that moment- until something 'bad' happens and we're sent down a spiral and we think 'why does life hate me?'. It is so easy to concentrate on the negative instead of the positive. Life is just life and it always will be that- all you can do is constantly acknowledge how you feel in the present moment and just go with it. Once you do this you start to realise how beautiful life actually is- even when things don't go maybe how you want them to- you seem to find a beauty in it - you end up trusting that life has something so much better waiting for you. The feeling of joy becomes so much more dominant than the feeling of sadness. You suddenly don't feel bad for loving things intensely - you realise that is the way you should be living - taking everyday as it comes and loving everything with all your heart and not feeling guilty for it. We talk about the pain you feel inside when something really hurts but what about the feeling inside your body when you're completely in awe of everything .
All we do now as a society is think 'what if'; we could be in a happy relationship where everything's going perfect but your brain will still torment you with the 'what if' - none of that matters, it doesn't exist- only you exist and things exist through you. Constant overthinking and 'what if' moments are only valves in which pain is able to exist through you- once you close these valves the pain can not exist and you do not have to think about 'what if' all the time.
I know that everything I write on here is just words and especially if you're in a negative space words don't really mean much- you can tell someone to be happy or give advice but sometimes that just isn't enough. It's like when you're in that whirlwind of emotions -you feel like everything in life is against you and no matter how many good days you have the feeling just doesn't go. Then without even realising it you come out of that whirlwind - you laugh, you smile but because we've become so immune to realising the good times we don't actually notice or acknowledge how we're feeling at that moment- until something 'bad' happens and we're sent down a spiral and we think 'why does life hate me?'. It is so easy to concentrate on the negative instead of the positive. Life is just life and it always will be that- all you can do is constantly acknowledge how you feel in the present moment and just go with it. Once you do this you start to realise how beautiful life actually is- even when things don't go maybe how you want them to- you seem to find a beauty in it - you end up trusting that life has something so much better waiting for you. The feeling of joy becomes so much more dominant than the feeling of sadness. You suddenly don't feel bad for loving things intensely - you realise that is the way you should be living - taking everyday as it comes and loving everything with all your heart and not feeling guilty for it. We talk about the pain you feel inside when something really hurts but what about the feeling inside your body when you're completely in awe of everything .
All we do now as a society is think 'what if'; we could be in a happy relationship where everything's going perfect but your brain will still torment you with the 'what if' - none of that matters, it doesn't exist- only you exist and things exist through you. Constant overthinking and 'what if' moments are only valves in which pain is able to exist through you- once you close these valves the pain can not exist and you do not have to think about 'what if' all the time.
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